Friday, February 04, 2005
Whoa
So, I've been putting this away message on my IM where I beg people to help me get my Free Photo Ipod. A friend of mine that I've been talking to online forever signed up for it. Initially, the plan was for me to pay her for whatever cost signing up incurred. She signed up and was like "don't worry about it, let's just say you owe me one" I'm thinking in my head WTF does that mean??? Anyways she then explains how she wants me to hang out with her sometime. First off let's establish the fact that I was never opposed to the idea. It was just something that never came up. I said, that I'm not saying no or promise when. Then I started thinking about it and it started eating at me. Not so much her, it's not about her. It's about the fact that I was merely asking people to help me get to my goal of getting an Ipod and it gets used as ammunition against me.
Granted, I shouldn't look at it that way, but that'd be sugar-coating it. I'm flattered, don't get me wrong. She's a cute gal. Who wouldn't hang out with her, but I just don't like being made to feel like I have to do something.
I even mentioned that I didn't think it was a good idea because of a previous experience, but that didn't seem to sway her any.
I'm definitely going to have to talk to her about it some more and tell her that I don't appreciate being made to feel that way. And again, she probably thinks she's doing me a favor by asking. And I dunno, to her it may not be a big thing. I think it's a big thing though. Cause it really seemed like she signed up with the intention of making me hang out. I know, I sound like a whiner about this, but that's just not cool in my book.
I just remember calling her once and it was the most awkward thing. If that was because of me, or if it was because of her is pretty irrelevant. I just didn't get a good vibe or a spark there. Another thing is that she's just coming off a relationship and I think it's too soon. I mean, I know that she just want to hang out, and not jump my bones, but it's just the way it fell into place. I don't like being backed into a corner and that sort of told me a lot. Not that I don't trust her, but in a way that planted some seeds of doubt there.
Granted, I shouldn't look at it that way, but that'd be sugar-coating it. I'm flattered, don't get me wrong. She's a cute gal. Who wouldn't hang out with her, but I just don't like being made to feel like I have to do something.
I even mentioned that I didn't think it was a good idea because of a previous experience, but that didn't seem to sway her any.
I'm definitely going to have to talk to her about it some more and tell her that I don't appreciate being made to feel that way. And again, she probably thinks she's doing me a favor by asking. And I dunno, to her it may not be a big thing. I think it's a big thing though. Cause it really seemed like she signed up with the intention of making me hang out. I know, I sound like a whiner about this, but that's just not cool in my book.
I just remember calling her once and it was the most awkward thing. If that was because of me, or if it was because of her is pretty irrelevant. I just didn't get a good vibe or a spark there. Another thing is that she's just coming off a relationship and I think it's too soon. I mean, I know that she just want to hang out, and not jump my bones, but it's just the way it fell into place. I don't like being backed into a corner and that sort of told me a lot. Not that I don't trust her, but in a way that planted some seeds of doubt there.
